I’m too far to do much. :/

” I Fucking Hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I found a mouse in the car, and since mom saw that I was having fun using it, she wants me to take it to storage tomorrow so it can stay there. I’m fucking done, mom just doesn’t fucking understand she tried to save a lif, A LIFE!!!!!!! and since I just so happened that the girl wanted to die and died mom is creating hate inside my heart. She doesn’t even get that she tried her hardest to save the girls life, and because she died mom thinks she needs to carry the fucking burden. Mistakes fucking happen, if she is not ready to have the events of heroic action set in her mind, if the girl died or not, then she shouldnt have fucking done anything, & just stopped in place just like the rest of the people. And mom is like “oh no one relates to me, I’m the only person like myself” of course no one fucking relates to her she is fucking taking her anger out on everyone, and even changed me to the point where I actually look fucking different, my face is now a mirror image to the sad, hate, pain, and false happiness in myself. And she isn’t even trying to get fucking better!!!!! So you have to know why mom is all alone and no one understands her is because she lives in a hellish void in her mind where she relives any & every sad, hurtful, depressing, negative action or influence that she has seen or has happened to her,living through infinite thought similarities generating from the alpha to the omega on that situation she recreates. Like who the fuck would relate to that? No one live in a constant reminder of hurt!!!! And she knows that what she is doing to everyone, me, you, etc. Is wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But in her attempt to create understanding within other people for her, she pusha them away, or alter their Perspective to the piont they wish they are better off dead. And you know what makes me so fucking made when I think about it now, is that when she found out about Tate’s death, she was so fucking mad at coach tony for not “

-My little brother